Forbidden Fruit

To date, today was the worst day of this journey. It has been a rough day and it started early this morning; it set me on an emotional roller coaster from the get go. Once lunch time came around, I was stressed to the max and I ate like it.

I must say that as I ate the forbidden fruit (aka personal pan pizza), it was so delicious and it was like a small piece of pure enjoyment!!! However, I ate the 3 personal bread sticks which was so scrumptious and then ate the first piece of pizza, I began to feel guilty b/c I had worked so hard to get where I was and this was ruining it. I hate the second pizza ( personal pan slices are tiny) I began to feel full, however I kept eating!! I finished that pizza and enjoyed it, too, I didn't care at that point if it was not on my diet. As I drove back to work, I was praying about what I had done because then I began to feel guilty and started to think about the scale that would be staring me in the face all afternoon as I would weight those sick little patients.

That is when last night's bible study came to me. It is not about what we eat, as God did not intend for us to restrict food from our daily intake, but to be thankful for everything we eat and to not over indulge. I was okay eating my lunch, and I was very thankful for it, but when I started to get full, I should have stopped eating. Continuing to eat when I was feeling full exhibited gluttony. That is the sin, what was wrong, not just eating the pizza.

So, be mindful of what you eat, AND WHY YOU EAT IT, and don't let the food rule you!!