It has been a very rough week. It started last Thursday and snowballed from there. I really can't explain it and I feel so bad because I have "fallen off the proverbial wagon" of sorts. The diet is shot, no walking since then either and the weight has reflected it. It has gone up! UGH! But I have to pay the price for not staying focused...I know that, but it doesn't make it any better.
I sit here at night, thinking that I will never loose the weight or get where God intends me to if things don't change, but I don't know what else to do. I feel depressed, angry with myself and as of right now, I don't think I will every reach my goal. I am sitting at the bottom of the pit and really don't feel like climbing out!
I feel like I have disappointed everyone including God, but there is so much going on right now, I feel lost and of course, since I am a stress eater, I eat. I think I need to go back to the first couple of days of the bible study and start over again.
Pray for me and I RE-begin this journey and start step by step climbing back out of the pit!! It sucks, but the only think I can do is to get re-focused and start again. I don 't know how it will go, but I am definitely going to try.
Talk to you soon... I hope.
Hang in there Paula - don't be so hard on yourself!...life sucks at times...we take two steps forward & slide back 3 - & then there are days we hop, skip & jump ahead!! Focus on those days!! :)/dss
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