Today's post was born out of my group bible study lesson from today. But I decided to expand on my thoughts here so I could ramble at will..... :-)
I like to have printed copies of my bible study lessons because I like to make comments about things as I read through it. This helps me to pray about the lesson and the truths in it when I finish reading it. One of the statements in today's lesson is that you will fail at some point in keeping your commitment to spend time with God but the key to victory in this area is to simply begin again.....my comments on this was - I seem to begin and begin and begin and begin. Will I ever stop beginning and actually go!
Hebrews 12:1b is one of my favorite verses but I like the NLT version better: Let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. This is the verse that greets you when you go to my blog page. I have started so many things such as training for a 5k, training my spiritual life and just life in general that I decided to "blog" about it for accountability. It just seems interesting to me that I have used this same mindset we are studying about today for so long and still trying to live by it, but have I have finished, have I actually reached my goal? Certainly not, I just keep failing and beginning again!
I am still trying to discover my life plan, still learning to rest (I also happen to think naps are a waste of time as did the author of the bible study lesson I am reading and feel guilty whenever I take one) and learning to put off that extra baggage so we can run the race. I do believe that I will finish training for and actually run a 5k one day, but my spiritual journey will not be over until the Lord calls me home, so with that, it is imperative to begin as many times as we need to run with endurance the race God has set before us!
I does get tiring though, constantly beginning again both the 5k training and my spiritual life. It is like going on a trip. You get all packed, get in the car, head down the driveway and remember you forgot something so you go back. Do this over and over again and you will never get on the road and get on your trip, you will never see the beautiful things God has planned for you on this journey. I makes me sad to think how many wonderful and amazing things I have missed out on because I keep starting my journey over and over but never actually get on the trip. I know that we are to run with everything we got on the trip we have been given, but I feel like I am a car on blocks and the engine is reving and reving. I am trying to go, but my wheels are just spinning and going no where. I am still trying to figure out how to come down off those blocks and begin driving somewhere!
It can be very discouraging at times, a lot of times lately. I know there is more out there, I am just not sure how to get there without knocking the car off the blocks and doing some damage to the underside of the car or its surroundings so it can finally get on this wonderful trip!
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